Life sometimes is not as easy as it may seem. We may not know it but there would always come a time that we won't know what to do. We would seek for someone to comfort us, to listen..

It's just an irony that the one we are expecting to be with us, the one we considered to be the best friend we would ever have...is the one that would cause us so much pain.

I hate it when I feel this way. I've been trying hard to forget all those memories but it just al coming back everytime I see **. I had stopped hoping but I guess I need to accept the fate. I don't have * *, much worse, I don't even know if ** feels the same way I do right now. We've been together for almost all my life...we've shared so much that even I don't know how. We've done things together to the point that I already don't know myself. All just for **.

Things may look just what it is but I know they would never be the same again. So much had changed.

Now I'm lost.

I'm looking for him...I'm searching for myself.